Itching with anxiety

It’s been over a week since I last posted to this new blog. I was really hoping to make more frequent postings, but oh well. Anyway, I’m in one of those moods where I want to do everything right now. I feel like a car that is idling too high…I sound energetic, but I’m not getting anywhere.

This blog was meant to be an online diary for myself. If someone read it, great. If not, oh well. It’s partly so I can get things off my head and move on.

One thing that I did accomplish today was going to the gym. I signed up for a full year. Ouch, but hopefully it gets me back on a committed schedule. I could tell I am really out of shape. In fact, I think I pulled a groin muscle.

Tomorrow’s another day. I’ll hopefully get back into the gym. 2007 has been a wild year in figuring out who I am. I’ve learned so much which, I think, has helped me learn even more, quicker. If that doesn’t make sense, that’s ok. It’s not entirely clear to me either.

U2

Five years after I bought the Elevation Tour Live DVD, I’m finally getting around to watching it. That’s sort of how things are for me. I have books I bought years ago that I haven’t quite gotten around to reading.

Why is that? I love the bookstore. Its the place I go to get away. I buy a lot of books and magazines. It’s an addiction, but much better than drugs, drinking or smoking.

The wet female body

Is there anything hotter than a glistening, wet, tanned and nude female body? I think not. The best sex I ever had was with a girl where we got all wet in baby oil. We slipped and slided all over each other. It was outstanding and it was about 10 years ago. I’ll never forget it! Ever.

What do I do now?

Have you ever experienced being so busy for so long that when things finally slow down a bit, you don’t know what to do? Don’t get me wrong, I still have a ton of stuff to do, it’s just that I’m not on a high-pressure deadline to get it all done. The fact that the pressure is somewhat relieved is making it harder to do anything. More on this later after I get it all figured out in my head.

Finances

I used to be great at doing my finances. Everything went smoothly. Then online payment came along. I hate it. I’m too on top of things. Does that make sense? I’ve set up payment for bills two weeks before I want the check sent. I forget to enter it into MS Money, then one day a huge chunk of money is gone from the account…oh yeah, I paid that bill two weeks ago.

Frustrating. I need to get my hands around this.

Some nights

I’ve been fortunate. I had never experienced one of those embarrassing and hair-raising situations in a restaurant or some other busy public place where my kids had a meltdown. Crying, screaming, tempers. All of it.

Until tonight.

Wow. We all survived. My fatherly patience was tested more thoroughly than ever. The kids are sleeping now. Tomorrow will be better!

Yes!

I woke up at 4:30 this morning! It’s been awhile since I’ve been able to wake up early without an alarm clock. Fell asleep fairly early on the couch with my girlfriend. Went to bed and bam, woke up nice and early. I love it!

Just like old times?

I dropped off the kids at my ex-wife’s house last night. I was invited to stay for dinner. I hesitated at first, then decided to stay. It wasn’t too strange. In fact, it was enjoyable having all of us sitting around the dinner table again.

Since my divorce, my outlook on life, family and kids has changed dramatically. There are times I’m happy I’m single again. There are times I miss the fact that I won’t be spending the rest of my life with the woman I married and had our children with. There are times I don’t miss the troubles we had. There are times I feel sad that we will go on a vacation as a family.

There are times…

Let ‘er rip!

You know that point in a relationship where she farts in front of you for the first time? Yeah, uh, I don’t like that transition.

Hey, I toss that salad, I don’t want to hear noises coming from it.

Yesterday morning my girlfriend let one fly in front of me. This has been a fairly new occurrence over the past few months. A few minutes after she did it she jumped back into bed and I was kissing her belly. She rolled around and I continued on her butt moving my way towards her crack when I recounted the happenings of a few short minutes ago.

We laughed. I told her I wasn’t going to kiss her farting ass. The little foreplay ended anyway as we both had to get going.

What I’m watching now…

Not that anyone cares, but when I’m doing work or just browsing on the laptop at home I usually have the TV on in the background. I think I’m going to do a “What I’m watching now…” category where I’ll briefly comment on what’s on my TV.

So, here goes.

It’s Sunday morning and I have MTV cribs on. Mariah Carey is being featured. Boy, does she think she’s hotter than she really is or what???? She just looks sloppy and all over the place. Don’t like her. They should change the name of this show just for this particular segment to MTV Tits. That’s really all Mariah is trying to show off here.