It’s my life

You ever feel like you’re living your life in an effort to please others? I hate that, but I think that’s what I’m of doing.

What are my parents going to say? What’s my ex-wife going to think of this?

All questions that are in some way, shape or form holding me back…big-time.

I must change it immediately.

My current relationship is hard to define. I guess you could say I have a girlfriend. We’re not exclusive, but we’re serious in a way where I am in love with her. Screwed up, right? Anyway, my family doesn’t know about it, nor does my ex. Neither of them have many good things to say about her.

Why do I care???? Why? I shouldn’t. I’m adult and can make my own decisions in life. God knows I’ve made many that have gotten me to where I’m at today. But still, I worry too much about what other people think of me. Do they approve? Do they like what I’m doing? Who cares! Do I like what I’m doing! Do I approve!?

Sorry for the venting. Just needed to get that off my chest. How’s your day?

I love…

My kids more than anything

80 degree weather

The smell of clothes dried on a clothes line

Being completely lost in a woman’s body. Having those moments where you are so focused that nothing short of a nuclear bomb will knock you off course.

Baseball

Falling asleep on the back patio with a great book on your chest

Cold beer and cheese

Wine, a Marlboro Light and nice conversation. (I only smoke on rare occasions and sometimes it just feels/tastes so good. It has to be the right situation)

Driving a golf ball 300 yards straight down the fairway and knowing it the millisecond you start drawing the club into a backswing

The challenge of kissing and licking a woman’s entire body and resisting the urge to penetrate too soon!

kissing ankles

Licking from the belly button down to whatever comes next.

Finishing a project and starting something new

Teetering on the cusp of success and failure in business. Taking a risk that will have a huge outcome either way. When that happens you know adrenaline is truly a liquid that shares space in your veins with the red stuff.

Random play on the iPod.

A long motorcycle ride on a winding country road.

Sex in the fields during a break on the moto.

Cruise control

Outdoor concerts

Jimmy Buffett

Happy clients

A woman in a towel

Mowing the lawn and washing the car

The smell of fresh grass clippings

The sound of the water sprinkler (chu, chu, chu, chchchchchchchchch)

Rolling a putt when there is still dew on the green

Drinks with friends

Cooking dinner

Seeing my kids have fun, run around and smile

Seeing my kids smile when they see me

that my kids have the best mom in the world

that I can say that again.

writing

69

a woman who knows how to give a blow job

graph paper

new places

reading

falling asleep watching football on a cold Sunday afternoon.

a lot more, but I’ll stop here. I tell you what…do this exercise and you can’t help but feel great!!!