You ever feel like you’re living your life in an effort to please others? I hate that, but I think that’s what I’m of doing.
What are my parents going to say? What’s my ex-wife going to think of this?
All questions that are in some way, shape or form holding me back…big-time.
I must change it immediately.
My current relationship is hard to define. I guess you could say I have a girlfriend. We’re not exclusive, but we’re serious in a way where I am in love with her. Screwed up, right? Anyway, my family doesn’t know about it, nor does my ex. Neither of them have many good things to say about her.
Why do I care???? Why? I shouldn’t. I’m adult and can make my own decisions in life. God knows I’ve made many that have gotten me to where I’m at today. But still, I worry too much about what other people think of me. Do they approve? Do they like what I’m doing? Who cares! Do I like what I’m doing! Do I approve!?
Sorry for the venting. Just needed to get that off my chest. How’s your day?
3 responses so far ↓
redheadedtomboy // May 7, 2008 at 10:47 pm |
You sound like me. I always feel like I am living my life to please someone else…that kind of happens when married, though. Can’t do anything just because you want to, have to be careful not to upset the spouse. I also worry about what strangers think of me, I am of course, referring to my blog. It drives me nuts! I want to post a photo or something but worry some STRANGER would think I am trash. Endless cycle!! Drives me crazy. I just want to be me and do what I want to do and say to hell with the rest of them….
sorry for my rant in comments. I understand what you are saying completely! Believe me.
MisstressM // May 8, 2008 at 2:28 am |
The reason why you care is because you want the people you have listed to validate your decision for you. But what I am curious about is the non exclusivity.
Doubly // June 19, 2008 at 3:10 am |
Somehow i missed the point. Probably lost in translation
Anyway … nice blog to visit.
cheers, Doubly.