The good and the bad…

The other day I went on an incredible first date. It was sort of a blind date actually and one that was harvested in this wonderful world of Web 2.0.

We met online through a mutual interest and the chatting evolved to her asking me out. I had an outstanding time. Time will tell if anything comes of it, but when I have a completely relaxing time on a first date and we never search for a topic to talk about that’s usually a great sign of positive things to come.

So while I’m excited about that, I’m saddened that the final nail was put into the coffin of my relationship with the woman that I’d had an off/on four-year, tumultuous relationship. I love her. I really do. It’s hard since I’ve only told a few women in my life that I love them. She was special and who knows…maybe someday. But today I can’t continue to drag along hope that things will work out. It’s not fair to her or me.

This brings me to the good and bad in life. Are we able to make better decisions when a good thing can balance a bad circumstance? I hope this doesn’t sound cold, but did this outstanding first date—which is all it was and who knows if anything will come of it—empower me and give me the confidence in the old saying about the number of fish in that there ocean? I know, it sounds bad but we’ve had serious troubles for months. I just sort of feel bad that I made the call to end things shortly after meeting someone new and exciting.

Life’s a bitch, but then I guess there’s always tomorrow.